The previous months have been pretty busy for me as I took up law school…

Yes — I took up law (finally!) after many doubts and questions whether this is for me or not.

… but this post is not about that.

This is about a certain struggle I’ve been having the previous years and I pray to finally be more empowered to defeat it. I know I will despite the uncertainty I have of the future except the fact God’s plan is the only thing certain — which is awesome!

Anyway, I’m blogging about this simply because I know there are people (especially young adults) who have been struggling finding their purpose or the right career for them or see the progress they want… after all there are so many uncertain things that makes young adults shift from one work to another especially with the pressures of comparison they did themselves thanks to Social Media. In my case, I just happen to feel locked up and uncertain due to my many failed attempts and even problems on what to prioritize…and yes I also ended up comparing myself that I procrastinated on my own progress (which may be surprising for some friends).

I know I should have made a move on having a more focused progressive action but this is where God amazed me more as he comforts and ensures it’s all about his timing and that He’s holding on to me. I had ideas of having a business and wanting my own company but the question of where to start or how to do it simply leads me to more frustration. I found myself doing more than what I can do which eventually made me burned out. Worst part, I have become lazy and wondering and hanging up on so many things I ought to do that in the end I have to struggle with disciplining myself again.

But why am I saying this now?

Believe it or not, law school helped me get that discipline up and running again… it made me reflect on the seasons God placed me in which leads to where I am now. Although I do reflect on every season, I think this time made me really hold on to the realization I need to care for me more. Currently I am amazed that the moments I thought were completely simple activities in nature back in the past could actually lead to where I am now — and even to a more firmer stand on my convictions and what I really desire to have in life. Surprisingly these are activities which I was hesitant to take at first but eventually had given me the biggest impact in my life….

I’m not getting any younger and soon I need to secure myself if I expect God to use me more and move others. This means being decisive on a professional degree like law and even deciding to move more for get the business… I need to make small steps with big impacts.

In other words… I need to move more according to my current season…

I am single, in my 30s, working, and recently studying (finally) my post graduate degree. I am thankful for my current season and grateful to be given both the time and the motivation to move forward. My time on earth is numbered and I have wasted so much already…. or did I???

Anyway, what matters is that I am taking an action and to be honest it’s scary…but it’s comforting to know that it is the Lord who moves in me and is directing me to this awesome future He has for me. I just have to start somewhere, even if it’s hard, and discover if this is the path for me.